If I had to do it again....

If I had to do this life again, while still honoring my growth. I would do the following:
I would know, I was love came from it and would return to it; that It would never leave my side no matter what anything looked like.  I would not allow a temporary situation become a new low energy definition, of who I am and what I am or am supposed to be because of it. Nor will I let anyone else make that claim and just believe it without checking in with myself first.
I would look at stories earlier, and see them as just that. Especially the ones that made me doubt myself. Because your thoughts never make my reality. You just think that...and thats okay, but I wouldn't let it affect me as much.
I would dance and laugh more. Have fun. Be in love with myself.
I would know that there are some truths and some opinions and with discernment I would know the difference.
I would draw more.
I would write more.
I would sing more.
And I wouldn't care not one bit what anyone had to say about it because I am just being myself...maybe in so doing I would teach others to do the same.
I would....
I would....
Be like a child.

Reflections

Have you ever wondered why there are not any mirrors found in any vampire homes; or any such character for that matter. The answer, they refuse to look at themselves. Of course this is analogous. But what does it mean when we become unable to look at our selves. We see not our short comings, or unbalanced thinking. We see only what we want to see...that which is comfortable and pleasing and nothing more. However, that which we don't want to look at gives us the opportunity to restore ourselves; in wholeness and in truth. By simply doing health self-reflection. In truth it is the most loving thing we can do for ourselves. It is love for ourselves that prompt this desire for self correction. With out reflection we cast this into world and thereby find many to blame. Many to point the finger at when in truth. It is most effective when we do this on ourselves. When we choose to reflect on our own thoughts words deeds and actions.

As quoted in the Bible:

Matthew 7:3-5 

 “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye."

How simple this truth is, as all truths are. 

"Be ye ever guarded by the misconceptions you have lest those misconceptions spill out into all those you see and meet". For all stories we tell about others are stories we are telling about our own selves. All is one. Reflections are available for your improvement for your adhereance to your own truth. Your own expressions of your own innate divinity within. For in the review an opportunity for balance is called forth and done so by your own desire. For your own good pleasure. What do you see? If its not what you want, course correction is a freewill choice. In so choosing- an opportunity is made and advancement in understanding is obtained. This is not a punitive, or judgmental action but one guides by and supported by love. For that you are from and from that will ye shall return.

I AM Sananda, always in service to the One...To the Light and in love I offer ye this message".

Bioluminescence

When we think of Bioluminescence, more times than not; we attribute this characteristic to a marine organism. A fish, or plankton perhaps. What I am putting forth here is a renewal of thinking. As we too at our start began in fluid. Can we too be Bioluminescence? Science will tell us that we are 80 to 90 percent water. Of course this does not account for or give reason to why there a cases of people doing into bouts of dehydration. Nevertheless, this is a predominate socially accepted truth. That I question; among other theories.

To return to my previous inquiry; I think we can be and are Bioluminescent. Our light shines and as such it brings people closer to us. It helps us see through the fog of our ego.  It also lights the path for others. I don't think, we think of Bioluminescence the same thing we have also as when we compare with marine species that have the same quality because it's display is different. But everything isn't about appearances, now is it? I put forth an idea that it has a similar purpose and function and by that. It could very well be the same thing. Just as a fishes bioluminescence works best when the fish is in a environment that will support it's usage. I believe that is the case for us as well. Often times; when we are in a supportive and nurturing environment. Who we are shines brightly without obstruction. And in those trying moments however, it is still there we just really have to put forth effort for it to shine. But it still does. The only variant between us and the marine life; or us day to day, apparently is how much others can see it. Through our words actions and deeds. Be the light of the world. Start today. End of Day 1.

I love you!

Mothers Day gift from my daughter. 

Hello. I don't know you...but I love you anyway. I love you for sharing this planet with me. For watching the Sunrise. For laughing and for crying. For being feed up and stressed out. For not knowing what to do and doing something. Anything to get you out of the place you were to where you are now. I love you for trying your best and not giving up. I love you for all those reasons because I see myself in all that you do. And if no one never told you... I appreciate you for sharing the grass and the moonlit sky with me. And on my walks I will think of you. What? I don't know who you are...? I can hear you. In the same way you don't have to know a comedian and you laugh at their jokes. I can never have met you and still feel connected to you. As you go about your day...just know that there is someone here who loves you more than you can know. And so completely...its put online for the world to see. Not because you did anything for me. Not because you are related to be. Not because I want money. But because you are. And I love that. I love your being here. Unconditional. Love exists. And it's here now.

Where did all the See-saws go?

It's a real question. With far reaching implications. You see...See-Saw's and Jungle Jim's where the Nicolas Telsa of outdoor play. They taught a lesson of life that is unparalleled to this day. For it taught these life lessons stealthy in jest, and in play. In absolute joy and merriment where all things are known. Now we behold gaudy monstrosities of color and stairs and lame bridges that is playful in appearance only. It's almost dead despite its apparent vitality and youthfulness. Pseudo play, or indoctrination in the playground.

The mighty See-Saw taught the lessons of balance that has escaped the youth and at a time where they need it most. Lost in mobile devices that shows only picture of nature but could not teach of her wondrous secrets to life; like the See-Saw could. And the interconnectedness of all things: the only song the jungle gym sung. Oh how far we have come...and how far yet we have to go to see the truths that at one point in our innocent youth taught us. But our offspring have yet to know; as we "parents of the future" struggle to find common ground. For we learned differently. We learned...while they are taught. Oh there is a difference. One of which I hope to find resolution. In the end. All roads lead home...but some are longer than others. Here's to getting there with love in our hearts and unity of mind.
End of Day 1.

Why love?

If you are anything like me, by now you are at this point when you are throwing your hands in the air and saying; "I'm done". At first that was scary. But now I welcome it, "When one door closes,another one opens, right? So here is to that door opening and me walking through. But first I have to prepare myself for this new journey, seems logical. What am I going to need...? Umm...lets start this another way...what am I willing to not take with me on my journey. Well:
I don't need my indoctrination. They keep me tethered to what I am leaving.
I won't be needing any loyalty to groups or affiliations that do not support my growth or my need to embark on this journey.
I won't be able to take my friends and family....they don't want this...I do.
I am also going to have to leave behind...my personal history and my need to be right.
I have to approach this with the innocents of a child. Forgive myself for all my transgressions and allow the same for others. Like in a disaster movie. Everything is nuts and nothing makes sense. Everyone is doing what he or she thinks makes the most sense to them. So no need to judge. Or be harsh. It wasn't really them...just their worst case scenario version. They had to create it to deal with the disaster. But I am choosing love. So I choose to see them in the best case scenario even if they don't want to see it themselves.
I guess the only thing I can take is....me. Let's see what comes of this.
Love has give me this ability to want and seek change. Love is and always will support life and growth. Love is something I never really thought about for me outside of things I could buy. But I mean real love...I have not given myself. I thought I was...turns out it was responsibility and obligation. I know that now,  because me wanting this fills me with joy and empowerment whereas what I thought was love, or me loving myself always left me feelings empty and wanting more. So yeah...I Choose Love. Why love, Why not? End of Day 1.